You can be hurt many ways... by many different people. 

Sometimes it hurts a little and sometimes it hurts a lot. 

Sometimes people don't realize the things you gave up, the things you had to put up with. Sometimes you wonder if they even KNOW. It hurts when people talk behind your back. It hurts when they lie to your face. It hurts when you love someone, but they are doing so wrong in life, that they wont even speak to you. I am not here to judge. I am here as a human being. Humans should not judge each other. I am allowed my opinions, as everybody is. It hurts that I can't express my true feelings without everyone being upset with me. I know I am an emotional person. That's just who I am... Emotional, caring, and honest. Being hurt and depressed sucks. So for now, I'm cutting out the people that are doing this. I am focusing on Christ. I know that he will accept me for who I am, love me, and watch over me. 

Long time no blog...

Wow, okay it's been 9 months since I've posted! I'm now a crafty stay at home mom, looking for a job, but enjoying my time with my family while I look. This recession has given me some time to do some sewing, painting, and  general crafting!  I love being able to watch my kids learn new things, and have been teaching Joshua so many things. He's pretty much ready for Kindergarten, but can't start until next year due to his birthday! Alexavier is getting so big! Driving me nuts as he explores and makes me put more and more stuff "away" until he understands the word "No"! I promise I will post more, probably daily really. What else do I have to do? (Yeah Right!) 

Took Alex to the Dr today... he's a whopping 23lbs! No shots, just fluoride on his teeth which I have never heard of before, but hey what do I know. The Dr even gave him a peek-a-boo puppy book.  I would strongly recommend the CCMC at Mary Bridge for any of you Tacoma Mama's looking for a new Dr. They are GREAT with the kids! 


Joshua's birthday is coming up, and he wants his party at Chuck E Cheese. That being said, his party is going to be scaled down this year, about 7 kids instead of the usual 15 or so.  It will be fun. There are certain adults he has requested to be there, which I think is so cute. I'll be sending out e-vites later this week. He has told me about 1000 things he wants for his birthday. I keep reminding him it isn't Christmas! Just a few of the things he has mentioned... Nerf guns, blendy pens, Lego Indiana Jones, Space Legos. You name it, he wants it. Oh and big stuff too, and R/C Boat, Tank, Truck, AND Car! 


Hubby is getting better. He's in PT now has some mobility back in his shoulder, so that's good. This time we have been able to spend together has made our relationship so strong. This is our 11th year together this October. I think a weekend away is in order. 


For now I'm done. I am getting ready for a trip to Pt Defiance Park. We are having snacks and letting JJ run around. I think it wont be long until Alex can do the same!! 

Welcome Alexavier

Okay so I suck at blogging. I think that's obvious. :) Here is my birthstory with Alexavier.

My Birth Story with Alexavier Joseph Yeater

Hmm where to start. I felt like “labor” started quite some time before I actually was “in labor”. For weeks before I went to the hospital I was having regular contractions about 20 minutes apart. Each week I had my doctor’s appointments and scheduled NST’s (Non-Stress Tests). Starting at 36 weeks we noticed my heart rate was quite high, and they kept me in Labor & Delivery after the appointment to observe me for 6 hours. The next two weeks my NST’s showed that the contractions were about 20 min apart, and over time got more intense. My doctor had said that because I was diabetic she wouldn’t let me be pregnant past my due date (10/24/08). So going in to the week of the 19th of October she called and said to bring all my stuff with me, and we would induce on Wednesday the 22nd of October. I go to the appointment with all intentions of going up to L&D afterward. My NST showed that I was having contractions 6-10 minutes apart. I go to the regular doctor’s appointment – and she says I am not going to be induced. She said that she didn’t think she needed to check me, because I didn’t “look like I was in labor”. So we head home… very mad! Mind you I had brought my mom up from Aberdeen (about 70 miles) to stay with JJ while I am in the hospital. So we drive the hour ride home, (still having contractions 6-10 minutes apart). I go grocery shopping with my Mom, make dinner and start to notice my contractions were a lot closer together. There were no more 10 minute intervals, they were every 5-6 minutes and getting stronger. We call L&D, explain what is going on, and they say “Weren’t you supposed to be induced today?” “YES! But my lame Dr. told me I had to wait, but I’m in Labor now so can I come in?”
Josh and I head out to the hospital at 11:30pm, get there at 12:20 and they set me up on another NST. It shows the contractions are now 6-7 minutes apart. They ask me to walk the hospital for at least an hour and a half to get the contractions closer together. So walking we do and boy are hospitals scary at night time. We come back to L&D and back on the NST machine. It’s to the point now that I am doing some serious breathing. Alexavier’s heart rate kept dipping, so they put us in to an observation room, gave me 2 shots of morphine and told me to get some rest. The morning crew comes in to tell me they want to give me pitocen to get the contractions started, and want to move me to a delivery suite. WOO HOO!! FINALLY! We move to the L&D room at about 8am, I eat breakfast and then they start me on the pitocen at about 9am. My contractions start going pretty quickly but I am able to get up and move around, so that was nice. I spent a lot of time on the “Labor Ball” and I guess that helped him move his way down the birth canal. At 3:37pm my water broke naturally, and by 4:30 I wanted the epidural. That’s when the problems started. I was given the epidural, and I guess with the combo of the pitocen and the epidural both mine and Alexavier’s heart rate and blood pressure dropped. I personally thought I was just taking a nap cause of the effect of the epidural; however I guess that wasn’t the case. I woke up to Josh holding my hand and asking me to pray with him, about 20 Dr’s and nurses in the room, and the anesthesiologist hovering over me giving me double shots of epinephrine. I didn’t really know what was going on, but everyone kept saying I was okay, and Alexavier was okay too. Finally the anesthesiologist said that I had a problem with my blood pressure. They stopped all the drugs. No epidural & no pitocen. Once the contractions got painful again they started the epidural again THANK GOD! So they gave me a button to up the epidural meds every 20 minutes. They kept the drip really low, but allowed me to have a button. Woo hoo! Things slowed down a bit, since they slowed down the pitocen, and although I was still laboring heavily, they kept checking me and did a couple of ultrasounds. They noticed that Alexavier was “sunnyside up”. Meaning his face was facing my tummy instead of my back. This freaked me out, because I was really scared of a c-section. We tried different positions to get him to turn over, but he’s a stubborn little guy and wouldn’t move. The doctors decided that it was best for everyone for me to have a c-section. I was not happy, but wanted to do what was best for the baby. So they wheel me into the Operating Room at about 10:15. Josh comes in a few minutes later all scrubbed up and ready to hold my hand. The whole time I am trying not to cry, thinking something is really wrong. So as they get me ready to go, they check me one last time and Alexavier has turned over! So they told me to push I pushed about 6 times and it hurt SO BAD cause the epidural definetly wasn’t as strong as with JJ. But out came the baby! I had 2 nurses and Josh holding my legs for me, and another one pushing on my stomach. I was freaked out but he was a very healthy little guy. I guess on the last push they noticed his little hand trying to come out first, so they had to push it back in… and then his head came out. But besides that it was not that bad. I got to hold him right away, and they took us back to the normal labor & delivery room. We stayed down there for about 1.5 hours. He got his first bath after I breast fed him and had to lay under the warming lights a bit cause he was shivering a lot. They said his base temperature was low, (it was 98.0). Finally I got to eat something. So it was all day with no food but it was worth it. J We got sent upstairs to the recovery room. We spent 2 days there and finally got to go home with our little guy.

8-14-08 - BUNK APPT

Today I had a dr's appointment. Today I learned that my second doctor is no longer my doctor. Today I became very pissy and mad at the world. WHY do I have to go through 3 doctors during my pregnancy? Why can't I just have someone stick with me? I would like to have a "connection" with my doctor, but being that I dont even know what her name is, I wouldn't have any "connection". My appointment went something like this.

Weight check - Up 4 lbs
Blood Pressure
Asked if I had any pain - said yes and rated it at a 5
Drank Glucola for my second glucose screening
Peed in a cup
Dr came in -said cheerely - "BY the way... did anyone tell you I was leaving? Sorry!" She's pregnant and wearing high heel shoes to work... whatever

Anyway she didn't even look at my chart to talk about the pain I told the nurse about or anything! She asked questions about things she would have known the answer to if she had read my chart. She said... "well since you haven't had any contractions yet looks like all is well..." HELLO!! I called 2 times last week cause of contractions.

I told her about that and she goes... oh well sounds like everything is normal. NORMAL! You call not being able to walk more than ten yard without sitting down NORMAL!?! If that's normal than I must have had a pretty f'ing amazing first pregnancy!

JJ went with us to the appointment - which was fine. He was being pretty good the whole time, until we had to wait for the blood draw - then it was not so easy. Afterward he RAN out of the blood draw area and Josh had to take off after him. He doesn't get that he HAS to stay with us.

It's like 90 degree's outside. I have my A/C on, but as soon as the air stops blowing I start sweating. I am getting frusturated with everything right now and am not able to handle the pressure for some reason.

Baby time is coming up soon and I just don't feel that I am ready.... emotionally, physically or in reality. I need to do an overhaul of the house, which will get done not this weekend but next, and am ready to just get all the clutter and junk out. My carpets need a good cleaning (will happen AFTER next weekend) and I still am waiting for the crib/carseat. I know I'll get them before Alexavier comes, but I'm starting to stress a bit about that.

Babyshower for friends and family is on Saturday, that should be fun although it's causing a bit of stress as well. I guess it has to do with the fact that I'm kinda the one that is organizing it. Latara is helping me go shopping tomorrow, which is cool.... I'll update about the shower after it happens. I am pretty excited to have some of my good friends and family around. I wish my sister Emily would answer the phone so I could pick her up tomorrow to spend the night, but she hasn't answered for me in a long time.

Okay... enough blabing - TTYL I'm gonna try to "rest"... although I can't get any kind of comfortable and want to rip my hair out ... :)

Peace Out

8/8/08

Hi all! It's been a few weeks since I have posted, sorry. I've been definetly feeling the side effects of pregnancy. Tired, emotional, tired, :). Besides that things are going as smoothly as possible. So far so good with the Diabetes stuff. My only big problem was that I started to have contractions yesterday, about 4 an hour... or every 15 minutes or so. The nurse told me that if it gets to 6 or more an hour I have to go into labor & delivery. UGH!! So I have been taking it as easy as possible, and trying to stay off of my feet. Also she told me to drink more water. So there you go. I'm huge now. I might have someone take a pic of me so I can post it later.

Just think good thoughts and all will be fine.

TTFN

Airshow Pics from 7/19/08

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I got pretty tired today, but it was a lot of fun. The first airshow at McChord Air Force Base since 2005. My first one ever, and JJ's. He loved it!

7-18-08

So I went to the doctor on Thursday - I'm up to a whopping 170lbs! Besides that everything is relativly normal. My iron levels are low, so I have to bump up the Iron, and so far I have no diabetes... woo hoo... but another test will be done in a few weeks, just to be on the safe side. Baby is getting big, so far all of the different things say he is about 13.5 inches long, and about 2lbs. Once I get to work on Monday I will scan the new pics of Alexavier and I will post them.

Our baby shower is coming up on August 16th, should be pretty fun. Co-Ed Barbque at Steel Lake. Let me know if you are interested in coming.

I just realized I have about 14 weeks left, well I'm hoping about 12... :) and am not prepared at all. I mean if the baby came now we pretty much have nothing. So hopefully babyshowers will help that situation.